When and Where Did It Happen

We have spent some time in church today, listening to one or maybe all seven words of the book. I wonder what the passage really understood, the great mystery. For we are told that when they came to the place called the cup, Where they crucified him? When they came to the place called the sound? Where is he? And what kind? We cannot fix the cloth in God or locate it in space. And it's a very great mistake in interpretation to ignore the out- and- out charism of the supernatural nature of the crucifixion. In fact all the great events in the life of Jesus Christ.

Let me share with you my own personal experience to show you cannot locate it in space and you cannot fix it in time. Remember it is only a fulfilling scripture and the scripture is the Old Testament. Return now to a song the 42nd song that was written hundreds of years before. If you listen carefully to the tin, you will see you can date it. It begins as the heart panted after the water, so panted my soul, soul after thee, O God. My soul's thirst of feet and thirst for God, for the living God.

Now he said, these things I remember. When I went with the throne and led them in procession to the house of God. A mother seemed festive God. And let me share with you my own experience of that time. A new trial was predicted in time, although faded in space. This night in Kirsten, I was leading an enormous crowd, a gay crowd, a very a huge mother and leading them through the house of God. And as we walked in the gay manor, a voice rang out from outer space. The voice said, and God walked with me. A woman at my side to my right, she questioned the voice and she said, if God walks with us, where is he?

And the voice replied, at your side. She looked to her left and looked into my face, and she became hysterical. It's proper for fun. So again she addressed the voice, and she said to me, Neville is gone. And the voice answered, yes, in the act of wisdom. Then the voice spoke in the depth of my own tongue, and no one heard it but the speaker. And the voice said to me, I laid myself down within you to sleep, and as I slept I dreamed a dream. I dreamed, and I knew exactly what the end of that sentence would be: he is dreaming that he's alive, but I became so emotional moved by the voice speaking in the depth of my own being that I began to return to this level.

As I returned, my hand, my head, the right side, and the soles of my two feet were nailed by the vortex. Here was a vortex, a vortex, a vortex, a vortex, and each foot a vortex.

Now when did it happen? The text is passed. I laid myself down within you to sleep. And as I said, I dreamed a dream. Now it begins, these things I remember. If I remember, then it is fair. As Paul says, I have been crucified with Christ. Nevertheless, I live. Yet not I, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh, I live by the faith of the Son of God who loved and gave himself for me. Then he stated, from now on I recognize no one from a human point of view, even though I once recognized Christ from a human point of view, I recognize him thus no longer.

Paul, from denying Christ, no one more supported his vision than Paul. But Paul knew the whole thing was supernatural. When it pleased God to reveal his Son in me, I conferred knowledge with flesh and blood. The drama is a supernatural drama taking place in the soul of man. In the beginning of time, the crucifixion took place. That when God became as we are that we may be as he is. God became man. That man may become God. And that was in the very beginning of God. That was the crucifixion. The crucifixion is actually God becoming man. That is hell, what we speak of as deathly hell is man becoming God. You cannot date them, but we have dated them for church reasons and today we speak of good Friday as a day.

The fact, we separate before and after, when good Friday took place in the beginning of time. Bethlehem takes place at any moment in time. When it comes, it will come suddenly, unexpected. No one will know when he is born with you and you become God. For when he said to me, and as I dreamed, I dreamt a dream. I dreamed and I exactly what he is going to dream. He is dreaming that he is alive. And when the dream of life is over, I will awake as the dreamer. For then he is awake and I will be awake as the one who so loved that he actually became and took upon himself all the weaknesses and all the limitations of man, and they are unnatural.

So this they call good pride. You cannot date it. Any attempt to date it and to ignore it. They all together supernaturally characterize the event called the crucifixion. And why to explain it in some naturalistic way is to labour in vain. God actually became just as you are and he is dreaming in your life, so the dreamer in you is your own wonderful human imagination. That is God. Man is all imagination, and God is man, and exists in us and we in him. The eternal body of man is the imagination, and that is God himself. The divine body, Jesus. That's the divine body. And within us we beat him morning, noon and night by the misuse of our imagination.

For here, the suffering Christ that is put off today and all the statements that they are saying today are taken from the Old Testament. The first two from Luke, the third from John, the fourth from Matthew, then we go back to John for two more and then we end with Luke. So in the beginning: forgive them, all they know not what they did. Not one really knows, for he's in a dream, and the Father is putting him through the premise and suffering with him, because as you suffer, if you didn't have an imagination, you couldn't suffer. Remove imagination, and you can touch yourself in peace, and you couldn't suffer. So God in man is the suffering one.

He actually suffers with everything that man thinks. Only he suffers. So someone will pray to be. It isn't God who is suffering in my case. I am feeling the pain. I said, who? He said, I am. That's God's name forever and forever forever. Go to the people and say, I am, essentially. For this is my name for all generations. There is no other name that he has. So in the Gospel of John, it is always I am throughout the entire Gospel. He is affirming, I am the door. I am the shepherd. I am the vine. I am the true water, the living water. All these things, the I am is speaking of, which is all in man.

So here this night, millions of settlers have celebrated this day, and they thought they did God a service, which is all right, it's good to do something of that nation. So they went out and they spent an hour, two hours, some time, three hours, and they heard these words from the cross, and thought the interpretation given by the minister was the interpretation. A simple word, a word spoken of is not a word, but a completed thing. It could be just the shortest one is I first, for that taken from the psalm. In the very end, quoting now the 31st Psalm, but put into the mouth of Jesus Jesus on the cross. And he says, Father, into thy hands I commit my spirit.

The completed verse in the 31st Psalm. Into thy hands I commit my spirit. Thou hast redeemed, O Lord, faithful God. So it's that I've come only to fulfill Scripture. And so all these words on the cross are taken from the Old Testament. And you cannot think it. These things I remember. For may I tell you when it happened to me. Memory returned. Walking in that procession to the house of God. Memory returned. But when did it happen? Not on earth. Not here. When did he say to the poet if he walks with us where is it? When did the voice enter at your side? And when she became his telegram looking into my face when what?

And where? You can't fix it in time and you can't locate it in space. Yet I can tell you it happened as far as I am concerned. In an objective sense. They all seem objective to me. And the The voice was objective all the way to the last one, because everyone heard the voice. She heard it and could question the voice. Yet in the very end, when he spoke only from within me, I laid myself down within him to sleep. A deliberate decision on the part of my father. And the purpose of laying himself down within me to sleep is the transforming into himself as God the Father. that is duty the feudal he has to put me through the furnace I try you in the furnaces of affliction for my own sake I do for my own sake for how should my name be proclaimed I will not give my glory unto another and glory and I are identical in scripture I will make my glory to pass before you and when I pass by so he identifies glory with the I.

So to give me himself which is his glory he has the thriving in the furnaces of affliction and so I go through hell in the shadow of hell. But when he awakes then I awake as the one who sold out me he gave himself out of all of you. So this is the great story that took place, not took place, but I mean that we celebrate today as having taken place 2 ,000 years ago. And it's not so dull. This is the eternal drama that is forever taking place. Something to be done absolutely and continuously without dating. you can't hate it. It has no reference to time. No reference at all to anything taking place there.

It is always taking place. And so tonight, one, two, or maybe all of them, who knows, it will be his will this night that he unfolds himself with angels and reveals himself as he will. But no one can earn it. No one can force it. It will come in you seeing it. When the Father reveals himself. When people say, I saw God. If you don't see God, God makes himself seen. You never see him. He makes himself manifest. If after the whole thing unfolded within you, the few who have seen me unveiled, it's not because they came upon me and caught me by surprise. It was my deliberate choice to make myself feel. It's entirely up to me to make myself manifest after the whole thing unfolded with you.

You don't catch anyone by surprise. I've made you a promise. I will keep that promise. I have kept it for at least a dozen. Yet I have made myself feel vital but you do not catch me by surprise. And so when these events unfold with ease the soul of man it is God untold because we are told round thyself why seekest thou, O Lord? Awake! Do not cast us off forever for he will never cast you off for it seems so long when you are eaten by another's obeisance to the forty -second sign He likens the little heart Now heart is not H -E -A -R -T It's the little heart, the little deer H -A -R -T As the heart pants after the water So pants my soul after thee, O God My soul thirsts for God For the living God Now he tells us he's a saint of famine on the earth He will not be a servant for bread or a thirst for water, but for the hearing of the word of God.

When that thirst possessed you, nothing in this world can quench you but an experience of God. And that was an experience of God. When I heard his voice coming from without words, then from within, and I knew the eye of the dreamer with ease was God. And I do not separate the dreamer with ease from the eye when I wake. It's the same reason. I can have a daydream, I have a nightdream but that daydream and the nightdreamer are one and the same. So if I can conjure in a single hour in dream, the nightdream the most wonderful picture the most marvelous bridge of incident and then at the spring for then the same thing is true when I wake if I only know that the I when I wake is the one with the I that is dreaming I can now set my goal in this world name the end go to the end experience the end as though it were true and let the dreamer in me build the bridge of incident that will lead me from where I am now to the fulfillment of that day for me.

When I get there, it will happen in the most normal, natural manner. It will externalize itself in my work and I'll give all credit to the dreamer in me who is completing the dream. And when he completes it, these things will happen. This, as I spoke of earlier, preceding the resurrection. The resurrection comes in the cover. And it's not from some cemetery. They fall within your own skull. When they came to the place which is called the skull, there they crucified. In your skull will go to bed for the normal person as you've done year after year for as many years as you've lived, night after night. And some things change will happen while you're asleep.

You will feel a vibration that you've never known before. The strangest vibration. And you may interpret it as I interpreted mine. I thought, I know nothing of the human form. I know nothing of this body. And I thought to myself, well now this is it. I don't see how I could survive this vibration. And I thought, knowing nothing into the bottle, this must be what they called a terrible hemorrhage. But I couldn't see how I could survive this vibration. Far from that, I began to wait. And I wrote that I had never been awake before, to find myself in my own skull. And I knew the skull was my skull, but I also knew it was a sepulcher.

I knew it was a tomb. And it was hermetically be sealed. There wasn't a slightest little opening in that tomb. And I had one consuming desire to get out. For I had a built -in wisdom as to what to do. I knew that if I pushed the base of my tower, that something would give. If I could push myself through it and come out. Well, I did. I pushed it. Something moved, leaving an opening, and I put my head against the opening and squeezed myself out, each by each by each, and I came through that opening and the child comes through the womb of woman. I pulled myself up and when I came out, all the symbolism that we find in scripture, especially in the book of Luke, surrounded us.

Infant wrapped in swaddling clothes, three men to witness the event and the most fantastic wind. There was a storm and I intended the wind to be coming from the corner of the room although I still felt it in my head. And one of the three who were present, he felt it and he was the most disturbed of the three. They all felt the wind. We went to check out the lockheed. We went over to investigate the wind and And looking down he saw the child, the infant wrapped in swaddling clothes. And he picked it up. As he looked into the little face, he announced what it was. And he said, it's Neville's baby. The other two in the most incredulous voices asked, how can Neville have a baby?

But they couldn't see me. I was invisible to their eyes. I was so alive, so awake, I've never been awake like this before. poor. I could read their every thought. Their thoughts were objective. I heard what they said, and their thoughts, not yet expressed, were objective to me. They couldn't conceal anything from me. And he brought the little infant and placed it on the bed. Then I took the infant out of my hand, and I said, looking into his face, how is my spleen? And the little child broke into the most heavenly ladder and then the whole thing dissolved. The bay dissolved, the room dissolved, the input dissolved and I found myself on the bed.

With this fantastic indelible infringing upon my mind, I thought out and wrote the whole thing in detail and mailed it to my wife. I went down the hallway and got it in so that it would be a record. that the story of Scripture is supernatural and is not secular history. It's something that's going to happen to every person in this world, in their own good cause. But it is not something that happens only to one person. It's going to happen to all. It is God being born in man. That was His trait to Himself. and that man would actually become them, I was invisible to them. Why? Because God is Spirit, but it didn't rob me of the feeling of the power and understanding and a wisdom that I did not enjoy when I wore the garment of flesh.

Invisible to them, but I'm quite sure not invisible to the heavenly host. But they were not present, only the three who came, like the three shepherds come and they're soaring. And then, 139 days later, a vibration similar to that one started in my head, this time at the top of my skull. Again I thought this is it. There's going to be an explosion within me. Well there was. This time the whole thing exploded. I'm And when it all settles, turning before him, is God's son, not Jesus. David has told us in the Old Testament. David said in the second sermon, I will tell of the decree of the Lord. He said unto me, Thou art my son.

Today I have begotten thee. then he tells us in the 89th psalm I have come daily with my holy oil I have an altar room and he tells triumphantly thou art my father my God and the rock of my salvation I did not know born and raised in the Christian faith that I was and call myself a Christian My training did not reveal this at all. And here I see this, and there is no uncertainty as to the relationship. I know he is my son, and I know that he knows I am his father. If I am his father, and he is God's son, for things who am I. Everyone in this world is going to awaken as God the Father.

there is no room for anyone else in the universe but God. For God is transformed with wonderful creation into himself. And everyone will awaken as God the Father. So in the story of Jesus, Jesus is God the Father. You want to see the Father? And I've been so long with you, fellow. And yet you do not know me. He who sees me has seen the Father. How then can you say, show us the Father? I am the Father of one. Yes, I am the Father of one. The Father is greater than I, because in the office of the Saint, I am limited. But when I return to myself the Father, I am not in the office of the Saint, but in the office of the Sender.

and the sender is greater than the sent though they are one so Jesus is not the son he is the father David is the son did not David in the spirit call him my lord and my lord is simply the title that the son always used to describe his father he always possibly called as my lord and when I tell you it is David, it is David. No one in this world would ever I would say, disprove it. He can deny it now. But he would have had the experience. And when you have the experience, you can't deny it. I could no more deny that experience that I could deny now. The simplest evidence of my sin.

I couldn't. It's indelibly in the best of us. all of these are supernatural events and yet man has been taught to believe they are part of secular history it is not secular history this being is born not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man but of God for God became man that man may be born as God and because God is a father If he's going to give himself to me 100%, then I must be a father. Not just a father. The father of another son, but no, that's not it. If he gives himself to me, tell me, who are you? But he's a father. But what is your son's name?

David. Because if David is your son and you succeed in giving yourself to me, I must be. If you succeed, I must be David's father. That would have happened to every one in the world. Not one would have stated. For it is not God's will that one belongs. Can't belong. So if you go through the furnaces, do not let anyone condemn you for it. And say it serves you right. Or this, that, and the other. No. It is God's will. ¶He canceled all the furnaces, but he did it for his own sake, for he could not give himself until we are purified in the furnaces and then he calls us out one by one, not in pairs, you are too unique, not one person in the world can take your place; you are unique, the only one, just like us, and so in time you are going to be called into the living temple, a living throne in the living temple, and the whole temple is God's.

When we are told the curtain was thrown into from top to bottom, and people looked in the synagogue for some curtain that was thrown. How could it be when scripture tells us, Ye are the temple of the living God, and the spirit of God dwells in you. If I am the temple of the living God and the curtain of the temple is torn, one. It can't be something of the outside made with human hands. It has to be the temple that I am. And that truly is the one that is torn in two from top to bottom. You don't expect something of those who likely cut you in two from top to bottom? At the base of your spine you'll see a golden, pulsing, big, big light.

¶It lives. As you contemplate it, you are going to know it is yourself. And you are going to fuse with it. And then, like a fiery serpent, you are going to ascend into your own skull. And when you get there, it is going to reverberate like thunder. For you are told the story in the third chapter of John. And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up. What did he lift up? A fiery serpent. And just as he lifted it up, all that was shadowed. No fiery serpent was lifted up. Many wilderness. All these other chapters, as we are told in the book of Hebrews, he was told to build it according to the reality.

Build it according to the reality, but yours will only be a shadow. A shadow of the things to come. All this is beautiful imagery, but although the words are frigid, the truth is literal. When it happens to you, it will be literally true. Though, when you read it, the letters, the words used were frigid, lifting up a serpent in the wilderness. No, it's all listed up within you. ¶That creative power within you that went down into generation will be reversed into regeneration— generation and move back up into heaven. For heaven is within you. And God is in heaven. For the kingdom of God is within you. And a kingdom means a king. And the king is within you.

And you'll rise within yourself. The one with God. And you'll play the part that you were predestined to play before that the word was. For this is a glorious day. It's understood. A perfectly wonderful day. In fact, all the great events were their only share. And we are mistaken for the reality. And they are not.

Now this psalm we quote in today, the 42nd psalm, is called a masker. A masker of Korah. The word masker means in Hebrew, peshuk in French. And Torah means reality, truth. That which is really truth, that which is real. So it's a special reality, a rather special instruction on truth, on reality. So this is a psalm that every one should read and try to understand it. And you who have heard it this night, take that with you when you read it. for I'm telling you the day will come you too will lead them in procession don't bring them never and never alone let them in day procession no you will play that song and every one will play that song every one must lead them in procession to the house of God and every one will hear and every one will have some one beside to question the outer voice and then every one leading them in procession is due to hear the inner voice coming only to them I laid myself down within you to sleep and as I slept I dreamed the dream.

I dreamed and you are going to know without any one told you what the sentence means at the very end. He is dreaming that he is I, the Savior of hell and then you are going to know what the true salvation is it's not painful it's pure ecstasy, may I tell you and if the the memory of it brings back to existence.

Just imagine what the original was. For these things I remember. What if I can remember something and become so ecstatic about it? Just imagine what it was when in the beginning we were crucified with God. As Paul tells us, I have been crucified with God. And he confesses he never saw Christ Jesus after the flesh. We know that the whole drama was within himself. And because it took place within himself, he would not confer with flesh and blood. And all these are the great traditions put into historical form. And men now worship an external Jesus when he is within. As we are told in Scripture, do you not realize eyes that Jesus Christ is in you.

Unless, of course, you fail to meet the test. And then he gives us the test. And the test is so very, very simple. And here is the test. You've had it several times tonight. And only you can judge whether you've passed or failed. But I'll give you the test many times. This comes from the fifth verse of the 13th chapter of 2nd Corinthians. Test yourselves and see whether you are holding to the faith. Do you not realize that Jesus Christ is in you? Unless, of course, you fail to meet the test. We've just heard the word Jesus Christ. He tells you in the beginning, he's in you. if the word Jesus or the word Christ or the word Lord or the word God or the word Jehovah convey the sense of some existent something external to yourself, you fail to death.

You haven't yet found him within. And I'll tell you, he is within your own wonderful human imagination. That is the Lord Jesus Christ. So if, on hearing these words, you jump out and think of something external to yourself, existing, yes, but external to yourself, then you fail to get it. As you walk the earth, walk in the consciousness of being this one who so loved you who became you. He is your own wonderful human imagination. Now you can test him in this way. If all things are possible to God, and he is within, and he is my own wonderful human imagination, certainly I should be able to test that. I will now dare to pursue that I am the man that at the moment reasons another.

I might sentence in I. But who is doing it? Who is making the assumption? I am. That's it. and all things are possible to God. And he just made an assumption. He is wearing this garment and responds to the name Neville when someone calls the word Neville he responds, for he is the reality that is that actually wears the garment. Now, I assume well, I am assuming, as God assumes, I am assuming that I am the man that I want to be. I know exactly what I want to help me. Walk as though you would. When you pray, believe you have received. And you will. Believe that you have. Believe that you have. Therefore I must walk as though I have received.

If I walk in the assumption that I am already the man that I want to be, to a reason denied, and my senses denied, I should encounter that man. I should actually become that man, so that others can see I am that man. For thou art pride. Take a noble concept of yourself, something noble, something wonderful, something that you would like to live with, assume that you are it, and walk as though you were, sleep as though you are, and then let the one within, who so loved you that he became you, unfold you in that light. For eventually he's going to unfold as himself. But in the meanwhile in the world of Caesar, let him unfold you as the man, as the woman that you would like to be.

Make it no work. Make it something lovely. Always use your imagination lovely on behalf of others. And certainly on behalf of yourself. Nothing little, nothing that would take from any one of us. Leave them just as they Don't rob them, leave them, take noble things of them, but for yourself dare to assume something wonderful and live in it just as though it were true. And I tell you from my own experience, it will be temporary. Now let us go into the silence.